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19:49 

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19:36 

Guys,you`re fucked up.I mean,seriously,what the hell?

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Панно из яблок с изображением Карла Линнея в деревне Кивик (шведская провинция Сконе).

@темы: ich bin der brennande Komet, Тапочки-мухоморы, Что это,Отто?!

19:08 

Lacoste,dude

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21:43 

I sometime vomit this things out when they crowd me from the inside.I hate it.

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My father,you know,he was not a good man,he was not.And I have no right to forgive him,the things he had done,you know,it`s not my thing to do,to forgive him.It would be such a betrayl,I`ll betray the others by doings so,especially my mother.It`s not my duty to forgive him,I do not forgive him,he still has the weight of his sins,but I still love him,I do.I hope it`s okay.I`m not allowed to tell this to anyone,you know,they will be so upset,and it still feels like betrayal.But.He was my father,how can I just not?He never loved my mother and I must be so stupid for assuming he might have at least loved me in his own twisted way,but it`s kind of our family thing,we don`t know how to show our affection,we are afraid to.I must be so naive to believe he felt something,I feel so guilty every damned second for loving him.Al least I had enough strength not to forgive him,`cause thingh he`d done were great,and I don` t mean it a good way.They were truly great,but terrifying.

Never wanted to tell this,but it`s stuck in my head and I can keep this up oh for so long,but it`s still not long enough.Just had to spill my guts out here.
You know,I hate it about myself,but when I start speaking about feelings I have to force words out and I feel dirty all over,like I`m totally not doing the right thing,I have to quit,but I cant `cause sometimes I feel like I`m gonna explode,and a feeling of shame and guilt after writing something like this is still much more familiar and a lot better than a break down,I don`t have time for these and I just can`t do this to the others,they`ll be so worried so upset.I can`t let them down,I`m selfish,and that could be the end of me.




 

@темы: Архив тайной полиции, Встречный ветер, Среда обитания

20:34 

They wanted the highway.They're happy there .

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So,I have some stuff to spill about summer and whatnot,but later,you`ll get it all later.
And,hey,I`m starting my highway collection,kind of afraid it`ll take a lot longer then my still unfinished Alabama one.

@темы: О том,немногом..., Полковнику никто не пишет(с), жизнь - это процесс, а не результат(с)

20:43 

5.8km

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I want to be able to walk in a cafe and ask for "the usual".I understand how selfish it is,but I want to be remembered,at least like that.

@темы: ich bin der brennande Komet, от солидола у них лапки распухают (с), Встречный ветер

19:08 

What,really,how is this even possible?

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Rock FM aired 58 songs from my music collection today,some of them from my top ten,and then they put Metallica,twise.
Is it my birthday or something?
So I switched the radio on somwhere near 7:30 and here`s the list till right now:
more

@музыка: 95,2 i think you`ve guessed

@темы: отдел линейного счастья, жизнь - это процесс, а не результат(с), Эпично, Что это,Отто?!, О том,немногом..., Небо будет за нас!

13:29 

Richard Siken.Road Music.

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Richard Siken
Road music
>1



The eye stretches to the horizon and then must continue up.

Anything past the horizon

is invisible, it can only be imagined. You want to see the future but

you only see the sky. Fluffy clouds.

Look-white fluffy clouds.

Looking back is easy for a while and then looking back gets

murky. There is the road, and there is the story of where the road goes,

which is only a story,

and then there is more road, the roar of the freeway, the roar of the crowd,

the roar of the city sheening across the city.

There should be a place.

At the rest stop, in the restaurant, the overpass, the water's edge¦

There should be a place where we are more than just a narrative.





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@темы: кому не нужен ломтик июльского неба-подарите(с), Полковнику никто не пишет(с), О том,немногом...

00:34 

Dying here,literally

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aadfhgjkl;'zxtrdctfvbanwo8t9esjdfkyghlpj;k!!!
So,yesterday my usual nonbullshit self swaggers herself into Crocus City and what the flaming fuck?! it`s all like my birthday and christmas and the fucking second coming just right there,that fucking instant.Because,you know what,(oh,poor little thingies,you`re never gonna guess,aren`t you?)so,you see,it`s fucking Chevrolet fucking Impala right there.
And I`m like dead,than resurrected and dead again.And,sweet lord,the next second I`m all over that car,like all over.And there are all these people staring,but I don`t fucking care,`cause that car is kind of a dream of my whole life,guilty pleasure,if you like.(It was actually a `69 instead of a `67 and a two-door,but that`s not the point,they are both fourth generation,so they look nearly the same.)Sooo,I`m like all over her(yeah,guys,she`s a she) and I`m considering putting a tent next to it and living there for the rest of my life,and than that guard starts asking me questions.Like he just had to ruin it.So I tell him to fuck off,`cause that car is like the love of my life and I`d sooner end myself than treat her wrong.And he`s like oh,I see,so I`d better leave you two,you won`t try to steal it,right?And I`m like jeez,I`ll have to hotwire her if I want to steal her and it means harm,so,newsflash,I totally won`t.And he`s like yeah,fine,whatever,and is ready to go away and in a fit of insanity(wholly justified) I ask him if I can open the hood.And,wow,he brings the keys.So I stare at the engine for the whole five minutes and than start rambling on about the characteristics and horse power(275,oh my,that`s just,gosh)and shit,and the guy listens and is like surprised or something.So in the end I`m allowed to spoon the car for nearly and hour or so.
She`s not just a car,she`s the car. And this shit is terrifying. `Cause I love that car too much,like strong enough for it to be scary.


P.S.
And,hey,here`s the song of the week:

@темы: отдел линейного счастья, в жизни всегда есть место подвигу, Эпично, О том,немногом..., Небо будет за нас!

13:56 

As expected.

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20:01 

I`ve already been told that I have emotional maturity of a fetus,no need to repeat

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Oookay,I`ll never-ever gonna open my laptop drunk again,like never.I won`t delete that piece of crap over there,but I don`t really want to hear any more bullshit like that,`specially from myself.Guys,I hate feelings-talk,just don`t know what`d gotten in me that time exept for beer and whiskey.And,okay,I`m sorry for my drunken self being a whiny bitch,but no way in hell am I sorry for your fucked inside-out brain,that,actually,me likey.So that`s all with the explanation,my hang over is still raging on,which is a surprise,take care.(Huge-ass exam tomorrow,no shit.)

@темы: от солидола у них лапки распухают (с), жизнь - это процесс, а не результат(с), Эпично, Что это,Отто?!, Тапочки-мухоморы, Среда обитания

00:49 

The shit kind of just hit the fan,didn't it?I think it did.That was pointless,ahem

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Whoops,sorry,just understood that you might get it all wrong.No way am I trying to tell you that I don't want to know you anymore,I do.It's just that I don't want you to be hurt over me,and in that field I'm a fucking uber pro.So,just think about it,I mean if you need it,it's on your own risk.
I sound like an idjit,don't I?Well,fuck,I kind of totally do.
I need to sleep it off,whaddayathink?
Hell,who am I talking to after all,myself?Weird,ten kinds of weird.

@темы: жизнь - это процесс, а не результат(с), Что это,Отто?!, Тапочки-мухоморы, Встречный ветер

00:10 

I`ll probably hate myself for this in the morning,but I'd never say this shit sober

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You are better off without me.I tried my best,which is not good at all,and I am so sorry.I didn`t want to tell this,but I just have to.You need to know that I`m really sorry,I`m such am awful person and I`m so not fucking worth of anything;if not for my mother,I`d be better off dead,so I`m here just because she is.And I`m sorry I made you believe I`m something good sometimes,I`m sorry I maybe made you need me.I`m sorry for everything you had to come through because of me.I do hope you can get over it,I hope you have already gotten over it.And it`s the first time I have desent wi-fi in weeks and I`m drunk as shit and I hate myself fiercely and I don`t really try to make you forgive me or anything,I`m just that stupid sometimes and I never was as strong as I pretended to be and there is so much shit happening right now and I have my duties and responsibilities and I just can`t fuck up `cause I`m just holding this all together somehow and I don`t know who to thank for that `cause it`s never me.And hell if I make any sence right now and it`s just weird like that,but the main point of this all was to apologise anyway,so again,I`m sorry for being a dick, I`m just too dumb sometimes and I hurt peple all the time and just don`t know how to stop `cause I can seem like a redneck like that but that`s how I show my affection and sympathy,that`s how I roll,I just don`t know any other way to show that I care.And for my family I care much,they`re my whole meaning,that`s kind of my job to take care of all of them in every way I can.And I'm still a jerk but a jerk with a martyr complex the size of texas,which is so much worse.Fuck,it`s gettin` really hard to concentrate,so.You were like family to me,you really were.But you know,I fuck up so much,I fuck up all the time,and I haven`t heard you voise in like forever and you`ll be better without me, `cause I`d better not drag people in the mess that is my family.`cause I don`t want this for you,so I`m sorry,but you better run,befre I`ll make it even worse.I`m really sorry

@темы: жизнь - это процесс, а не результат(с), Что это,Отто?!, Тапочки-мухоморы, Встречный ветер

18:00 

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Fuck you,okay.Just fuck you.
Really,why can`t I stop caring.
Because there is my family and for them I`m ready to kill and to get killed.
But who the fuck are you?Why should I care?

@темы: Архив тайной полиции, Встречный ветер, жизнь - это процесс, а не результат(с), от солидола у них лапки распухают (с)

01:20 

Just this.So true.

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15:35 

Jesus,I`m,like,living on caffeine or something.I haven`t slept in,what-27 hours?Gosh

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15:48 

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11.02.2012 в 19:28
Пишет supertoys:



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@темы: Что это,Отто?!

16:23 

Why can`t life be a never ending roadtrip?

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13:21 

Nice

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21:06 

If by Rudyard Kipling

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If you can keep your head when all about you
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you;
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you,
But make allowance for their doubting too;
If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
Or, being lied about, don't deal in lies,
Or, being hated, don't give way to hating,
And yet don't look too good, nor talk too wise;

If you can dream - and not make dreams your master;
If you can think - and not make thoughts your aim;
If you can meet with triumph and disaster
And treat those two imposters just the same;
If you can bear to hear the truth you've spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to broken,
And stoop and build 'em up with wornout tools;

If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings
And never breath a word about your loss;
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: "Hold on";

If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
Or walk with kings - nor lose the common touch;
If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you;
If all men count with you, but none too much;
If you can fill the unforgiving minute
With sixty seconds' worth of distance run -
Yours is the Earth and everything that's in it,
And - which is more - you'll be a Man my son!

@настроение: I always take such things as orders

@темы: О том,немногом..., Яволь!!!, в жизни всегда есть место подвигу

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